Stay Close, Don't Go

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♫ Only Know You Love Her When You ^ Let Her Go ♫

Note: If you been through a recent break-up it's recommended you do not read this article.

Many people believe that if you truly love someone you will do anything to make them happy, even if it
means letting them go. These people are what I like to call wrong. If you truly love your partner you will do anything to make them happy, but if you love them more than you love yourself you won't let them go. You will do everything in your power to get them to stay and make them happy again.

My girlfriend and I got into a fight, I over reacted and snapped like always. I hurt her real bad. She almost left. It's almost been a week since. We haven't really talked. She's mad and confused and unhappy. I fought though to get her to stay I begged and pleaded. I got her to. My point? My point is that If you really love the person you will give up everything to get them to stay. It's more then that though. It's a lot more.

Everyday she struggles (I know this boring, just stay with me it the good advice comes soon.) and I have to look into those eyes that once shined with joy but are filled with so much hurt and pain you have to squint to see the joy.

Got 'Em Back Now What?

Fix it, don't throw it away. No matter how hard it is.

Now you work your damn ass off. You put your happiness aside. You make this
person feel like they are the last living organism on this planet. You make up for what you did. The hardest and most scariest part is giving them space. Because they might leave, but it's time you stop being selfish. In relationships there are times when everything falls apart and you're on the verge of losing each other.

My Advice?

You have to move on. Give each other space whether it's limited contact or not talking for a few days or a few weeks. But keep in mind that if neither of you attempt to move on to put these negative feelings aside you will never be happy together. I recommend two weeks of not talking at the very most, after that let things be normal. If you start thinking of what happened push it out of your mind and replace it with happy memories. Just remember that in every long lasting relationship their is always one time when one or both of you mess up so bad you guys are virtually done for. But you need to get up on your feet and realize that one or both of you messed up you need to stand up and realize that their sorry. Take their hand and be brave. Go against your better judgement give them a second chance by letting it go. This doesn't mean you have to just stop hurting and or be mad or even forget about it. You just need to realize it's in the past. Think of it like this. If you are reading a book and a major conflict happens to two of the major characters but the author just keeps writing that same chapter over and over and over rewording things maybe adding something new here and there. The story never got to move on because the author didn't let the characters move on by the end of the book it's too late. Maybe it's because they were afraid. Just keep in mind that if your partner is insane for you to the point where they would take a bullet for you without thinking about it they are hurting just as much if not more than you are because they hurt the one they love and care about the most. So My Advice? Give each other an entire week without talking or a few days (aside from maybe a text here and there/being there for them) than make up. MAKE things normal again. If you don't you're only causing more pain for each other and putting the relationship at risk. You have two choices at the end the two weeks (at most I suggest) let your relationship die with all the memories knowing you could have fixed it, but you decided to throw it away because it was 'broken' or 'damaged' or put all your effort and strength and faith into making it normal again. It may take time for it to be fully normal but if you just leave it and say "let time do it" it won't because YOU BOTH need to do it. And most importantly believe and never give up hope.

Personal Message To My Love

No words could ever make up for what I did for what I said. Nothing could express the guilt and pain I feel  And when I mean normal I don't mean we FaceTime as much or text as much or that the pain and anger is gone. What I mean is that when we do FaceTime things are as they were before. You being silly and bubbly. That's what I want the most. That is the only thing I want right now because that is what I love the most about you that is why this is killing me. That is all I want for Christmas...all I want in general. It's impossible for me to say this but I will say it and I regret it already, but I won't FaceTime you until Saturday night. Because then maybe just maybe I will get my Bubbles, I don't expect you to be Bubbly every time but just being able to know that at least  once a week you'll be bubbly will ease to pain so much. I love you...and I am sorry I question everything right now. I have faith in us and  I will do anything I can to heal the pain and get you bubbly again. I love you.
because of this. There are no words known to man that express how sorry I feel and how it tears me apart seeing you like this. I've said sorry at least a 100 times. I do not deserve forgiveness nor will I ask. My only wish right now is for things to be normal on Christmas Eve and Day. For happiness and the power of love to take it's course. Time is what is needed. I don't know what I can do or say that will make the pain stop. I'm sorry. You are the best thing that's happened to me. Whenever we FaceTime and I see you smile and do a silly face it's like my entire world lights up and all the pain disappears now there is only darkness. I'm slowly starting to see the light. It still tears me apart it tears me apart that things aren't the same that you are hurting and that I was the one who caused it. I try and try and try to give you your, but it's difficult when you have so much guilt you feel like taking your own life to make things better. I haven't cut once, I've stayed strong for you. I am doing everything I can do to make up for what I did. Whenever you don't text me I feel like you don't want to talk and maybe that's true. I just want you to know that I NEED things to be normal by Christmas Eve the thought of us being like this breaks my heart our first Christmas together. I'm always here for you. I am always your Hun. I love you Eden...please let's try to be normal...

I guess this is may way of trying to fix things trying to get things to be normal as they can be at the time. 

♫ "Have I ruined all you've given me?

I know I've been selfish, I know I've been foolish
But look through that and you will see

I'll do better, I know
Baby, I can do better

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone
Don't tell me I can make it on my own
Don't leave me tonight
This heart of stone will sing till it dies

Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping
I listen to your breathing
Amazed how I somehow managed to
Sweep you off of your feet, girl, your perfect little feet, girl
I took for granted what you do

I'll do better, I know
Baby, I can do better" 

♫  — feeling sad.

                                              

                                                      

The Defention of Love

Through out our lives we make and lose countless friends and most of us many lovers. A true friend is someone who is therefore you throughout your toughest times. They see you at your worst and your best. These are the people who you call at 3:00 AM on a school night and the first thing out of their month is "What's wrong?".
Many teenage relationships don't last because people forget the meaning of what it is to be in love, to fall for someone who who they are the inside. We are so focused on sex and looks we forget the most important thing...being a friend before a lover. It's sad, What happened? What's happening? Girls complain that there are not hot guys to date...EXCUSE ME? Is that what this generation has come to? That we fixate on looks? Sure of course looks are important, but they shouldn't be the first thing we look for in a partner. A lover is someone like...like...like...Eden. I could give you a very long list of how I don't deserve her. She knows I'm broken. She's the type of person you should be with. You would never in a trillion years meet someone like her. I can over react, get mad, and be a complete jack ass and not let her get a word in...then a minute later look into eyes and all she does is smile and say "Hun...I hate seeing you like this. I want to cheer you up. I love you, Okay?" That's it. She is perfect. She understands. She's my best friend. I love her. Everyday I screw something up, but that doesn't matter to her. Imgaine the most understanding person you know, now times that by about 100. Guys/Girls, If your girl is half the women Eden is...marry her. You aren't going find another like them. This is the type of person that you could hurt so badly, but they would still love you. Do you know how rare that is?  [To Be Continued..] 

我爱你 -It Means "I Love You"

This article is dedicated to a special someone. My fiancee Danielle. Baby Girly.

Where do I start? Should I start by telling you how sorry I am for all my wrongs? Or by telling you what you've done to me, or maybe, just maybe I should start with an I love you.

I love you, Danielle. No words can express my love for you. You have done so much for me. You have always been there for me. You have done so much more than you think for me.

A Broken Heart Healed

Can you believe It's been 701 days since we started dating? I sure can. I love you. When I met you I was shy and had a very fragile heart. You didn't know this at the time, but you still held my heart with care. Whenever I had an urge, struggled to stay strong, or just a bad day. I could count on you to make me better. You taught me how to be positive. Because of you I have not attempted suicide in over a year. You did what no other women could have done. Healed my broken heart. I put you through so much and a lot of people would break under all that stress, but you didn't.

Remember When....

We fell for each other? Yeah I remember that night. Staying up all night texting and all a sudden getting a funny (but good) feeling.

Or when we first met? Hehehe I took a lot of effort not to kiss you in front of 1000's of people <3

Or when after my race when I was in shorts and freezing (because It was like -5) you asked if holding my hand would help make me warmer and I  almost said "No." because I didn't get the hint right away.
Haha that was funny.

Or that time when we made out in your moms van in the front seat and other runners were walking up the hill staring at us. Then their is that time when we were playing footsies under the table and you said "Are we playing footsies?" in front of my grandparents, parents, sister, and your mom? And right away the table went silent? Haha that was funny....but not at the time! >:O

You're So Weird!

Danielle: Do I have a brushing my teeth addiction?
Adrian (Me): I can’t comment on that…
Danielle: Well I guess I’ll have a relationship with my tooth brush then.
Adrian (Me): …

❤Love Knows No Distance❤

We live 595 km (369.7159 miles) apart. They said we wouldn't last. They judged us. We proved them wrong. 

Why I Love You

I love you for countless reasons. The reason I love you is because

your weird. Yes weird. I love it when I just give the "Um, okay?" look. You can handle a joke too. The biggest reason is because your different. You can be girly, but you can also be tomboy (okay not really "tomboy", but just not really girly). You let me see a side of you that most girls would NEVER let their partner see. So here's to you Baby Girly, Happy one year and 11 month anniversary!

Our First Photos

Are you sure I didn't smell in this one? I ran 11km (6.83508 miles) and forgot to put on deodorant.Oops!

    

  

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