Mr. Love Monster

Love…. Love is…it’s interesting to say the least.

Why? Why do we (sometimes) love, care, want, and always be with someone who we have romantic feelings towards, but at the same time we hate despise ourselves you feel confident and attractive, but look in the mirror too long or on a wrong day and you remember how ugly you are. My theory? We want to, we want to love ourselves, but because we’ve spent so long hating who we are and how we look we forgot the meaning of “Self-love” so when we find someone, someone who means something to us who in their presence we realize how special we forget about any problems we have because when we’re with them it’s like sadness is non-existent. 

It doesn’t matter that they don’t know that you hold them in your heart that they help you, help yourself, or that they don’t feel the same way back because their kindness and personality just overwhelms you. It’s that beacon that you’ve been searching for the dim light in the distance the light switch everyone keeps telling you about. 

My experience with love has been…. well it hasn’t been great. Love has proven to me that it’s beautiful like a rose but it spends its’ nights sharpening its thorns so when you let your guard down it hurts you. 

It’s odd you know, so many of us have a friend who we’d date in a heartbeat, but so little of us wish we didn’t have those feelings. I think the worst part is when you start to like someone so soon. Maybe that’s just me, though. It’s hard. 

Life has been great to me! I got an amazing photography gig (fingers crossed I get a great one when I move!) I met a great friend, but I like her.

The thing is for once I truly give zero shits about how gorgeous she is. She makes me feel…alive. The best part is that when she leaves that feeling stays. I love it. 

The back-story of this article doesn’t matter because, in this case, I don’t want to like her I bailey know her!  I just wish I could give her a poison (or just enough alcohol) That I could tell her my life story, tell her how I feel and that I get jealous that I hate myself for liking her so soon. That I wish I had a friend like her when I was younger, maybe then I wouldn’t have tried to escape this world so many times, maybe then I wouldn’t have these scars on my wrist. Because all along I’ve just needed a friend the type of friend you read about in novels. I’m going to miss this feeling when I move. I’ve never had a friend like this before. I hate the fact that I am moving and there is nothing I can do about it. Mr Love Monster, you are the one thing that has made me want to kill myself and the one thing that has made me keep on living. 




Yours Truly, 




Adrian C.

Skinny Bitch

Despite the name of this article I want to make it clear that the models below aren't bitches in fact, every single model I have worked with from first time photoshoot to international are very kind & respectful. They aren't rude or divas as portrayed in many television shows. It's just a title to grab your attention.

So you want look beautiful like those models on the cover of Cosmo, Seventeen & Teen Vogue uh? Well I am here to tell you how you can't. 

Now before you exit this post, let me tell you why. As many of you know I am a photographer. So let me tell you some not so secret things. First off models are photoshopped (duh), but do you know how much they are photoshopped? No? Perfect. I am here to show you just what some photographers & the advertisement industry does. We will ignore her flyaways and just focus on her skin, eyes and eyes.

Here is sped up recording of me doing basic enhancements.

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Here is what more advanced editing looks like

Photo credit: Business Insider

As you can see to your left and above the bar for women is being set so high that it's just not reachable. Everywhere you look women are being subject to unrealistic standards of how they should look from dolls as a child to lingerie ads for adults. It is drilled into your head from the day you are born that, THAT is what you are suppose to look like. Is that fair? No it's not fair.

It's important for women of all ages to know that what you see in front of you is not what beauty is. Now I'm not saying looks are important because they are -too an extent but what is more important is how you act. Being a bitch may get you places in high school but in the real world that isn't going get you very far. Out of all the thing women are being told have big breast, perfect skin, be skinny, have a thigh gap are things they can't naturally control sure you can lose weight, but how much can you really lose and still be healthy? Not enough.

As a 21 year old male I am telling all of you women out there that guys love it when you have self-esteem (so go love yourself ladies!). We hate it when we call a girl pretty and they reject the compliment because to us you are. Lets be fair though. Can we (males) really blame you for not taking a compliment when everywhere you look you're being told you're not pretty enough? No we really can't.

So just remember that those ads you see those women don't actually look like that. Lighting does a lot for a person as well.


If this article gets positive reviews I will do a more in depth one about women being sexulized throughout history by advertisement agencies. I am also planning on doing one for males.

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